Impression

To sum up the impressions of people towards me will always be: "cold", "timid", "quiet", "introvert" and every other term which possess similar meaning to those. For all the times I encountered such remarks being directed to me, all I could respond was with just a smile. I am smiling at the moment whilst writing this post. It's kind of hilarious.


REALITY

Some people said to me "you speak so soft" or "how do you even make presentation with this kind of voice?" or "you don't speak a lot"(at out very first meeting). If only they knew the truth - but they don't sadly. I have my own principle which we all know too well - silence is golden. I've always been advised by my dad to not speak too much - not that it is all bad but it will brings more harms than good does. I hate to contemplate at the end of the day, regretting the things I had said throughout the day. I will feel bad. I will fill unease. I hate that feeling of uneasiness. That's why only with really close friends that I will talk to. It's hard for me to open up to people - unlike some of us who I admired for being so open and easy-going.

Can't people just accept me for who I am? Can't people let go the fact that my silence does not mean I am slow/inefficient/not friendly and so on? Can't you just accept that people have their own reasons for all of their actions? Can't you accept that some people are actually battling their own very lonely battle against their inner fears & complexions?

Maybe because we expect too much on others and when they are not as par as the level we've been setting up - that's when we hurt their feelings, that's when we cut them off from our lives, that's when we start to justify their action.

If there's one thing that I really really want to do this year is not to live my life based on the expectations of the society. To you, my "weakness" might look like disadvantages. But different story for me as I ain't thought all those will weaken me but they are actually my personality traits that strengthen me in every way possible.

For all the people who might have the same personality/thoughts like me, don't let other people's words or actions hurt you. Brace up! We know better why we are this way as we have accepted the fact that we are "so-called different" from the rest of the world. By the way, we are all equally the same, but oh well, living in the world where people categorize other people using the mere eyes, can't help but also being in their categorization.

WE ARE MORE THAN WHAT THEY THINK WE ARE.

Best Wishes,

xxKHALISxx